Still here IV
20th January 2023 Warning: this may get a bit sad, but only for a little bit. A thing I can't currently do: Talk about my kids and cancer in the same conversation. I hope to be able to do that here, if I can, in written form. Talking about them in real life is almost impossible with anyone other than Rebecca. It's difficult to explain just how quickly the emotions explode to the surface and render me completely unable to speak. It's a massive endeavour to suppress the surging eruption of tears. My throat tightens and does that ache thing, my eyes well up, and I'm just unable to speak. Even if I wanted to or tried, it wouldnt come out. Well, it wouldn't be words, it'd be an attempt and a garbled mess of vowels and chokes. I've been asked many times, various questions about the kids and is often just "How are the kids coping?", which we kind of don't answer, well, not really. We'll say they're fine and coping really well or similar, bu...